Burning Down Bridges

Unpleasant topic that has plagued me for a few months; I feel like I need to get this off my shoulder. As normal people, we have conflicts, and normally we get over them. We get over our daily quirks and sometimes we say things we don't exactly mean to say and apologize quickly. Unfortunatly I have had to make some decisions early in my life, and they havn't been good choices.


By definition, Burning Down a Bridge is to basically sever ties and all relationships with a family member. My sister and I always fought over things, just like kids do when they are under 10, that kind of stuff is normal and I cant even REMEMBER what we argued over. As I got older, in my age now I have become much more mature and somewhat reasonable; but the alterego my sister is is a rebel, fighting, tongue twisting liar and I don't even know her anymore. My sister died a long time ago.


Let me say that burning down a bridge is the LAST THING that you want to do to settle a problem. Some things will never change. Some methods of resolving the problems won't work, and its especially tough when once side disagrees with you; and the other doesn't know who to believe. Rather than botch on my sister (which I don't want to do, I can give you a list) I think its time to start loosening the grip on the match. The digging into my old scars has got to stop. The racial comments have to stop. The language has to stop. The malice has to stop. It hasn't changed, and mediation has not helped. The Bridge needs to go; and I need to move on with my life.


I am a man now. I have my own opinions, and the decisions I make will be the consequences I will have to deal with later. When I am out of this house and free to be on my own, it will be time to say goodbye to my family. My sister doesn't need to come to me anymore for anything. She doesn't need to talk to me anymore or get advice. In fact, I am not needed from her; I am going to walk out on her in my life. The only regret I have of burning down this bridge is the pain it will cause; a pain that is long overdo and can't be healed by uncomfortable make/kiss-ups.


Please try and work it out with your family. I know people act like jerks and say things they don't mean, but try and be civilized people to each other. As for my sister and I, it's pretty much too late.